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July 27, 2005, 7:37 am PDT
Hisjewel,
Quote From: hisjewelI don't even know if i know what to say today.... yeah i don't have the money to go to the book store and get the book...... i have a few cent in my little piggy bank thing and that is all i have....
yes i do i wish i could just disappear!!! but then again i don't want to...... i just want to scream and just hit something until i can't do it anymore........ i could go for the longest time i think
I want to stop I think i don't know i am so confused...... i mean i don't want to die i want to live to help others and to fullfill what God has puposed for me...... I wouldn't ever kill myself on purpose and i am so angry that i know if i don't stop that is what is going to happen..... all i do is always tell myself ooo that's not going to happen to me i awill be just fine and well yeah i don't know...
my favorite thing to do is praise and worship i could do it forever and ever i may not always feel happy when i do it i may feel all kinds of ways but it isn't about that it is that i know i am lifting God up and bringing Him glory.
well i would keep writing but i have to do somethings so i will be back on later in the afternoon time
cya then sister
your friend
Hisjewel Or better yet, scroll up the page and e-mail Dr Phil. You are obviously in torment. You have done a very courageous thing to talk about yourself this way, it's a sign of health. The fact that you stopped going to the church that had the lecherous pastor shows that you protect yourself from others, yet you feel a need to punish yourself. I know that the pain within is worse than the pain you inflict. Please consider talking to a professional? These message boards can be so helpful, but there's only so much you can get from it. Maybe your mission in life is to beat this thing, so you can help others to do the same.
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