Quote From: beth203 My husband and I have been married for six years. But I wouldn't really call what we have a "marriage". We have a financial agreement. I pay my half of the bills and he pays his half of the bills. We spend time together but more like friends or roommates. No intimacy, no more physical contact than a hug or occasional peck on the lips. He went outside of the marriage a few years ago to have his physical needs met and that destroyed any sexually intimate feelings I had for him. And obviously he had none for me before that or he wouldn't have had the affairs. I probably sound pretty cold, I don't mean to. I do love my husband and I have never been unfaithful. I believe that I have just become numb to the pain. Don't get my wrong: There are times that I want him, but there is no way I can bring myself to beg a man, who has no desire for me, to make love to me. My friends have asked me how I continue to stay in a marriage like this and sometimes I wonder how much longer I can do it. I think the only reasons he stays with me is because it is easier on him finacially and he doesn't want to have to tell his parents. I stay because I do love him. It is a very lonely life.
To answer your question "Does anyone else have a marriage as screwed up as mine?"
The answer is not only YES, it is Many People do. I fact, ( my opionion) I think MOST married people "exist" together, and are not truly happy and in love. There is no reason for either of you to continue like this. An amicable sepparation can be an act of selfless love.
You owe it to yourself to seek fullfillment in your life...You need your mojo back.
