Replies to 'Depression'

You hit the nail on the head.  I suffered from depression before I got pregnant with my son and while I was pregnant with my son.  Before I got pregnant my doctor put me on celexa and I hated the way it made me feel, I told him I was getting off of it, and I have yet to take another anti depressant.  I am hard headed I guess you could say.  I want to beable to beat this thing all on my own, and I am finding little by little that it just sneaks back up on me.  After I had my son it was like I was a whole new person.  I could stand on my own feet and keep my head up by myself, I realized that I didn't need a guy in my life, all that I needed was my son.  He & I did great for a while, then I started to get lonely.  So I buried my head into my online classes for college and thats where I stayed.  Little by little I started to go out with friends, and what do u know...I met my "now" husband.  He walked into my life and saved me from whatever it was that was creeping up on me.  It was great, and then we got engaged, bought a house and started planning.  I slipped right back down in that hole during my wedding planning.  Decided about 2 weeks before the wedding that I didn't want to get married and that he wasn't the one for me.  Funny how that dark hole surrounds you.  Well we went through with the wedding (that was April 30) he is a great person and a loving father and husband.  I just can't seem to get myself happy with anything.  With my son there I covered it up and spent most of my time with him.  But with him being gone I thought well this will be a great time for my husband and I, boy was I wrong.  We haven't fought, we just haven't talked.  I have buried myself in my work, in my chores, in my computer.  Whatever it is I can do to avoid him, and I have no idea why.