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I was the one with all the "drugs" around me.  All legal from doctors.  It all started with a serious back injury thal almost crippled me.  I had two operarions to repair the damage but sad as it may be was only the beginning of a hell worse than any one could think.  After the operations the doctors told me never to gain weight so I added more drugs to my list.  Diet pills ontop of very strong pain pills.  Because I was in pain all the time, I could not sleep at night, so I added more pills to my list.  Sleeping pills.  I started by taking one a night to help me sleep, but after a while I increased the dose and later on ended up taking up to 10 sleeping pills just to fall asleep. In the morning waking up was hard.  I mannaged to hold on to my job, pretending nothing is wrong.  This went on for many years.  Being in a big city made thing easy for me to get hold of high volumes of pills.  More than one doctor and no questions asked.  I was hooked on that pills until one night trying to fall asleep and my body started shaking like some one in shock.  My heart was racing, and I felt terrible.  I believed I would not wake up the following morning and was sure I will die if I don't stop taking the pills.  I made it through the night and that morning I realised there was something else wrong in my life too.  It was'nt just taking drugs, I was unhappy in my job too.  So I went  to work and resign.  I packed my stuff and went home.  I took all my pills and flushed them down the drain.  That was the last time I ever took those damn pills that ruled my life for so long.  Later on I found out I didn't fool my husband  by hiding the pills from him.  My personality chanded after taking the pills and there were times that he would plead with me  not to take so many pills, to stop but I would'nt listen.  But that is in the past now.  I regain controll over my life.  Today I am happy and on top of it I started my own company.  I did not go for rehab and it was hard the first couple of days after I got rid of my "crutches".  This is the first time I am telling people my story.  No one can say they will never fall in the trap of drug addiction.  It does'nt matter what your choice of drug is, the first thing to do is to recognise you have a problem and then start taking back your life one day at a time.  I know, I was there and it was living hell.  It in not just teenagers using drugs.  Adults are also likely to fall in to the habit of taking stuff that may be harmfull, legal or not.  I am clean for the last 10yrs. now.  By telling my story I hope to help some one in the same situation