Replies to 'How Childhood Abuse Still Affects Me'

I know I'm not the only one...but sometimes it seems that way. I was reading these posts and couldn't believe I was reading my own story! And the mother "thing"...not being protected...being blamed...that's just as hard as the abuse. I was sexually abused from about the age of 3 from my father. My mother found out when I was 14 and accused me of trying to seduce my father. (I didn't even tell her how long it had been going on...she never would have believed me.) I was treated like an outcast from that day on, still to this day. I was called a liar and even crazy. I'm 55 now and it still has a profound affect on my life. I don't know what "normal" is...normal sex, normal affection...the difference between affection and lust or what is "going over the line?" I've been accused of being crazy again by boyfriends because I just don't "get it." I never found one who would help me try to get over this. I'm in a reationship now and he refers to it as "my problem," that I have to get over. His whole attitude is "get over it." Well, gee, what does he think I've been trying to do my whole life? When he acts this way its like my parents all over again, standing over me when the abuse was exposed, accusing me and demanding my silence and telling me I was crazy. That's what I feel he's doing. He just doesn't understand that I need his help. 

Anyway, I'm glad to see Dr Phil has this board here. I've been searching for somewhere to talk about this and to find others who know what I feel and who understand. Thanks for listening.