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September 27, 2006, 12:10 pm PDT

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I am unsure who your quote was too? were you addressing Camay or myself, I am syllin. I live in California, nowhere near Camay6, she is in Florida. If your information is for California, by all means-i am all ears. Regardless maybe you should try to post again, it could help someone else if not myself. and if u were trying to tell me, i did not get it. I did that one time too, had a long message and tried to post and i have no idea where the heck it went. I found out that if you hit that you wish to quote something, it always gets posted. i think that one time i hit replies to message or something. You have my curiosity aroused now. I would like to hear this different treatment. What i was trying to locate based on what i have read, was a treatment program that based its treatment on the Matrix Model. i would love to do a rapid detox but do not have the money, need the detox first then a good 30 inpatient program. No denial going on here. I know i have a problem, i just need help financially and someone to take care of my baby dog. There are a couple of other things that are extremely important too, that are necessary before i can go in. that is what worries me because i know sure as i am sitting here writing on line, if i do not get help within this year, there is no doubt in my mind, I  will not see next year. I am in my mid 50's. matter of time before my luck runs out, health wise. I have written Dr.Phil 3 times and a couple of other talk show hosts asking for help. No one has responded and it has been almost a month now. it took me 2 yrs to get the courage to ask anyone. And i am beginning to think that all these people and treatment centers that u go look at on line that say, if you think you are addicted and you want help, CALL NOW --WE CAN HELP, YOU ARE NOT ALONE...get on the road to recovery, start living your life now, call...You know, hate to say this but words are cheap...in total i have written for help/inquiring of services now to 7 places and not ONE has responded. I feel much like Camay6 does, the light/hope diminishes every time we attempt with no response. Or they cannot work with our particular circumstances.I have no one else i can go to, no family, no friends, the one i had i shut out because i didn't want to break her heart when she found out the truth. and when she did she would have dumped me because her sister 10 yrs ago had a situation much like mine and she hated it and she was very condescending when talking with her. i have had enough rejections in my life, I cannot handle another one,  so i cut her out before she did it to me. Let me know about the treatment..thank you...
If you know of any good programs her in FL, Please let me know.  I am nearing the end..............I thought Florida Detox was the answer to my prayers, but.............nothing if you don't have 15,000.00.  There is a rapid detos in MI that is 5900.00 but it is for only 2-3 hours.  Does not sound like enough time to me.  Know anything about it????  I called my insurance today to see if they would cover Florida Detox,  When she said yes, I was on my way to check in.  Then......they told me they only cover 2500.00.  I turned around and drove home sobbing yet again which is what I continue to sit here and do.    Best of luck to you.  If I can do anything for you, please let me know even if you want me to come there and help you through it for a day or two.  I am like you,  I am a single parent and cannot do a long term treatment program.  If I could do Rapid Detox, I don't have a problem finding sitters a few times a week for follow up treatment, but just don't have anywhere for my son to go on a long term basis.  Plus, I have never been away from him except a few business trips here and there.  We are very close. he is all I have in this world and I owe it to  him and myself to get well.  I wish it was as easy as what they make it sound.  I have not heard from anyone I have written to, I though that there were caring people in the world.  I am losing faith in the compassion in people. 
 
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September 27, 2006, 12:24 pm PDT

Addiction Support

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I am unsure who your quote was too? were you addressing Camay or myself, I am syllin. I live in California, nowhere near Camay6, she is in Florida. If your information is for California, by all means-i am all ears. Regardless maybe you should try to post again, it could help someone else if not myself. and if u were trying to tell me, i did not get it. I did that one time too, had a long message and tried to post and i have no idea where the heck it went. I found out that if you hit that you wish to quote something, it always gets posted. i think that one time i hit replies to message or something. You have my curiosity aroused now. I would like to hear this different treatment. What i was trying to locate based on what i have read, was a treatment program that based its treatment on the Matrix Model. i would love to do a rapid detox but do not have the money, need the detox first then a good 30 inpatient program. No denial going on here. I know i have a problem, i just need help financially and someone to take care of my baby dog. There are a couple of other things that are extremely important too, that are necessary before i can go in. that is what worries me because i know sure as i am sitting here writing on line, if i do not get help within this year, there is no doubt in my mind, I  will not see next year. I am in my mid 50's. matter of time before my luck runs out, health wise. I have written Dr.Phil 3 times and a couple of other talk show hosts asking for help. No one has responded and it has been almost a month now. it took me 2 yrs to get the courage to ask anyone. And i am beginning to think that all these people and treatment centers that u go look at on line that say, if you think you are addicted and you want help, CALL NOW --WE CAN HELP, YOU ARE NOT ALONE...get on the road to recovery, start living your life now, call...You know, hate to say this but words are cheap...in total i have written for help/inquiring of services now to 7 places and not ONE has responded. I feel much like Camay6 does, the light/hope diminishes every time we attempt with no response. Or they cannot work with our particular circumstances.I have no one else i can go to, no family, no friends, the one i had i shut out because i didn't want to break her heart when she found out the truth. and when she did she would have dumped me because her sister 10 yrs ago had a situation much like mine and she hated it and she was very condescending when talking with her. i have had enough rejections in my life, I cannot handle another one,  so i cut her out before she did it to me. Let me know about the treatment..thank you...
It was originally meant for Camay because I live in the same area and my doctor is also in that area but there are many different doctors that offer this treatment. It may be an option for you as well!  I am addicted to pain pills and had tried so many times to quit on my own but failed every time. I was taking between 20-25 pills a day. I found a doctor that uses a medicine called Suboxone for detox. It's outpatient by the way. I have been clean for exactly a year this month. Suboxone is not a miracle drug  but it has given me my life back and given my son his mom back. Some people use it for a short 3-4 day detox but I am on a maintenance program. I take 1mg a day, which is hardly nothing. The recommended dosage is anywhere between 16-24mgs a day. I am on maintenance because I was so psychologically addicted to the pills that I didn't know how to live without them, they were a coping mechanism for me.  So for the last year I have been in therapy working on the reasons for my addiction in the first place as well as developing healthy coping skills. Some people say you are trading one addiction for another with Suboxone but I disagree because my addictive drug seeking behaviors are gone. You can not get high from it, it has a ceiling effect, and if you were to try to take a pain pill while on it, it would block it and you would not feel it. I'm afraid to list my doctors website again because I think that because I put a link it did not get posted. So email me if you want more info. Which ever way you decide to go...do not give up. It's so worth it.
 


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