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October 12, 2006, 1:35 am PDT
faith
Quote From: bluebatmanmy son was born with a rare congential heart defect and many other problem, none of which showed up in the 5 ultrasounds i had. he passed away after 20 days. he went through heart surgery at 8 days old and had a complication that none of the doctors had seen before only read about. i spent everyday and everynight at that hospital, it was the hardest thing after he passed to go home. the doctors, nurses and other parents told me how strong i was to watch my son, because he was hooked up to so many machines after his surgery, but i wasnt strong at all. i just sat there and stroked his hair. about a month before my son was born i found out my husband was having an affair and that she was also pregnant, he says its not his kid....so now that my son has passed i am alone with 2 other boys to take care of and waiting to see if this other child is my husband's and going through a divorce. this has been the hardest few months of my life. i really dont know how to deal with it all. i just try to keep myself busy with kids. I am sorry to hear about your loss, my daughter is a heart baby as well and for her three years of life i have lived in the hospital for five surgeries three major. I thank god for her, but every time another major sugery comes up i can't help but wonder if i'm doing the right thing making her go through so much pain, but as she gets older and really becomes a person I know i've done the right thing and left it up to the doctors, her, and god. She is now not only a heart baby but a hemophiliac, from the meds she's on, her day care refused to take her back after this last surgery this summer, I work at McDonalds at night, to support us and because my boyfriend can watch her. I make enough for bread on the table, but never enough where as to get kicked off of medical assistance, because that would be a death sentence to her, I stayed in an abusive relationship with her father for two years, because i never thought I could make it with her on her own, we've been homeless, but no matter the obsticals that life throws us, please remember to keep your chin up. We can't change the past, but we can do our best every day, always keeping faith in a better and brighter tommorow, and have faith that it all works out for the best
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