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This is for Carly. Girlfriend you need to get a grip on your drinking. I'm 49 yrs old and drank from the age of 15 til I was 40 yrs old. It was hell out there for me. I drank to get away from my mom. I started drinking and doing recreational drugs because at 15 I was raped by a stranger and the only way I could be around a male was to drunk or high. My first real drunk was at 15 in the school auditorium. I drank a half pint of Southern Comfort. Never did I drink that again. At 19 I was engaged and was raped again this time by my former boss. Never did make it to trial because I didn't want my fiance to know that me and my rapist had had a one nighter at work. I dropped the charges. That then took down the road of oblivion. I drank to get drunk and shut out my feelings. My stepfather died when I was 22 from cancer. From that day forward I watched my mom drink herself to her grave for 17 yrs. During that time I was in the bars every night. Drinking and getting drunk then getting behind the wheel of my car. Fortunately I never killed anyone, hit anyone or anyrhing while under the influance. I would travel miles away to get drunk. Never had a DUI. The cops weren't interested in me at the time. They would now. When my mama died in '96 I went on a spree of all sprees. I was now drinking, smoking pot and doing cocaine. Mar. 30,1997 I walked into AA. For the next 6 yrs I was very involved in service work. Then I moved 2 days after my 7 yr anniversary. I moved from one state to another to be with the "man" of my dreams. Turns out he wasn't. We lived with his mom and year 7 was ok. However I stopped going to meetings and using a sponsor and shut God out of my life. Guess what? May of  '06 I went back out and trashed the 8 yrs I had. All because I thought I could drink socially. Well this time around it took me 3 weeks to do what I did in 25 yrs. I lost my fiance, was kicked out of his moms house, got an apt. and in a month lost it and my job. If it weren't for me reaching out and asking for help I would have a roof over my head.

So please put it down now. You're young and a pretty girl. Don't waste it on alcohol. You're young, and can probably get a good job. get help and start leading a good sober life. Don't become a statistic like the others. There's only 3 places you can go if you continue to drink. That's Jails, instittutions and DEATH. As long as you can get help all you need to do is DON'T DRINK, GO TO MEETINGS AND GET A SPONSOR. In the progaram the 3 things that are essential to your program are, HONESTY, OPENMINDEDNESS AND WILLINGNESS. Y ou have to be honest about what you are, openminded to the program and willing to change. I hope and pray you don't follow my path. Take care and may God Bless you.  Hugsssss, Lesley P.