Replies to 'Reigniting Romance in Your Relationship'

I've never attacked him in the past to cause pain. What I mean is that he let me think that I wasn't a very good woman/wife for him. So I tried to feel his feelings on his spot and try to understand why. I think the problem is that I wasn't very much into him in the past. I wasn't behaved like a good woman for him in a way being supportive rather than being too easily criticizng; I've been sleeping with the younger kid for years rather than sleeping with him. Both physically and emotionally I was kind of ignored him though not on purpose. I was more concentrated on what he should do as to be ambitious and be good provider for the family. I also had problems with his mother who is a very important person in his life and blamed him for being not communicating between I and his mother properly. I've always spoken what is right  and failed to feel what he felt and blamed him for the not good results. I've never tried to feel what he felt, what he needs as a woman should towards her man. I only cared what I thought was right or wrong. I guess because of this, he has accumulated hard feelings against me and he refused to care what is right or wrong as I cared. Easily having feelings towards other women only made him realise how little feelings he has for me. Especially when I react on this too strong as the result of my own feeling hurt. We both failed to communicated properly in time. Instead of talking, we chose to blame each other. Now I realise simply putting myself in a victim's place is not right. I should have tried to understand his why and looked into the matter to see what I've contributed to it . He said maybe it's too late for me to be good to him now since he surely thinks he has lost his feelings to me. He said he would try but I don't see he actively try to sort  it out and work it with me and it upsets me especially whenever he feels not happy with me he shows it and said things really hurt. If it's really too late, he has to tell me clearly and tell me why. But I don't know how to let him talk rather than whenever likes just react. He does look like has already made a decision rather than hanging unsure but I have to hear it from him clearly. Maybe he can't tell his truth is because he thinks that I'm not ready to hear it so he can't get his wanted peace. I don't know how long I should keep trying and how long I can keep trying. I don't want to have any regrets but also feel too exhausted. He's not very much involved in working it out. While for me, if it could ever be worked out, it's good for me and the kids.  I can and should only give up when I know for sure it's gone but how long I can stay a situation like this. I feel lonely, kind of hopeless and just want cry everyday. Why the life has to be like this hard. I feel pretty much destroyed. How can i be the only positive force to try to save the marriage while I'm feeling so weak.