Replies to '09/07 Dark Family Secrets'

Quote From: wheelingal

 i was sexually abused by my father up until i was about four years old. and i still have flashbacks of what happened and they have been getting worse the last few months. when my mom found out (when i was about 3), she left him. he was also physically abusive towards her and i have witnessed that and have dreams about that too. during the divorce, i had to testify in court about everything that happened including the sexual abuse. the courts never once put him in jail and has not forced him to pay child support. i am now 21 years old and am in college but am struggling to deal with the fact that there was no justice. i still struggle with the dreams and flashbacks (i am in therapy) but i am frustrated because there was NO JUSTICE. i just told my mom and aunt about the flashbacks and they just tell me to focus more on school so it will take my mind off of it. i feel so drained with all of this and feel like they care more about me finishing school than feeling good about myself. i feel like i have been robbed of my childhood (because the custody and divorce took years), and that my family doesn't understand how much this is still effecting me. i don't feel like i can talk to them because they just worry about my school and grades. i feel so lost.