Quote From: toshinshi (* The Dr. Phil site needs more variety. This is the best place I could find to post my problem.*)
I almost envy you gay guys. I know its hard, but once you come out you can go about finding 'someone'.
I'm transsexual. I like men; but instead of being happy as a normal straight girl my mind is fixed on becomeing a man. I cannot see myself loving a man as a woman. I know you all think I'm crazy for wanting the life of a gay man over a straight girl, and I agree. I've felt this way for a long time now and I'm pretty young, so I think this is built-in. Its problematic, I'm something of am extream sexest to women because of it and certain members of my family (grandpa) like to call me a dyke. T_T;
I admit, I do try my hardest to look male; even to the point of degrading my health. But its no good. Looking like a man doent mean anything unless your anatomically one.
I need a little help; what should I do? Seek counciling? Persue it? Or should I just give up and put on a dress? I doubt I could ever afford the surgery (around $50,000 at least), and the result isnt exactlly 'good looking'. Most of all what and how should I tell my folks? My big sis knows and I think my mom does, but what about everyone else? I'm very confused...
I can tell that this is weighing very heavily on your heart. If one of my friends were going through this struggle, here's what I'd tell her . . . Whether we like to admit it or not, we are created beings. I believe that God created us. From what I read in the Bible, and from experiences in my own life, I (by faith) believe that God doesn't make mistakes because He is perfect. He made you a lady, and if you're upset about that, you may be upset with God. And I know that He loves you, provides for you, and sustains your health. I'd like to encourage you that the God of the whole universe delights in your using your body the way he made it. Sex is something God made for a man and a woman; of course, its purpose is for procreation, but God made it pleasureable as well:)
I think you should tell your family about your struggle - accountability isn't neccessarily a bad thing. You're not alone. You can't exactly "trust" the way you feel; our bodies and minds are not perfect. Read Proverbs 3:5-6 and Psalm 37: you'll find great comfort knowing that God wants us to trust Him:) And then, make a decision! It's easier to have a purpose and goal in mind when you're dealing with something that affects your thoughts and actions.