Quote From: climbonMy very best friend passed away from Anorexia 2 years ago at age 28. Anorexia is so complex and frustrating for those of us who love those with this disease. My friend never experience real life, she lived in a world surrounded by her disease. Even after 3 heart attacks, a stroke, and multiple kidney failures, she couldn't help herself. I feel abandoned by her, I feel angry, sad, frustrated. Anorexia stole her life from the age of 9, it also stole part of mine, her family, and this world. She was a brilliant young woman and this disease took over everything. I hate all that eating disorders stand for.
I am angry at the shame, guilt, and sadness that I feel. She killed herself slowly and even though she didn't want to hurt anyone, she did. She killed herself and we had to watch every bit of torture she put herself through.
I'm sorry for the loss of your best friend. Your anger, sadness, and other feelings are very understandable. I know it's easier said than done, but try not to give in to guilt or beating yourself up. It wasn't your fault. I hope you'll find some help for yourself in grieving this loss and forgiving
yourself for anything you think you "should" have done. I wish we all would realize how much what we do to ourselves does affect those around us. I hate eating disorders and worshiping thinness more than I hate alcoholism and drug abuse. At least most people agree those are
harmful. Please be good to yourself at this difficult time.
