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Quote From: redneckcutie

Hi, this is my first post, but definitely not my first struggle with anorexia.  I became bulimic when I was 12, anorexic at 18, have been hospitalized too many times to count, and put into treatment once, (which failed miserably).  I went from a very hefty 160 lbs on a very small 5'5" frame, to 75 lbs.  When things got really bad, I was living with my now ex-boyfriend, who was a terribly abusive, physically and emotionally, alcoholic, who couldn't seem to stay out of jail.  I finally had enough, left, and started picking up the pieces of my life.  With him gone, and a new man in my life, I really started to feel better about myself and really worked to develop a new perspective and a new way of coping with life.  My boyfriend knows about my past struggles and fails miserably to understand where I'm coming from when I try and talk about it, and is very concerned at my recent weight loss.  I barely noticed, it was only five or six pounds over a period of a few months, leaving me at 95 lbs.  I do know that's too thin, but he went so far as to tell me I look awful.  That  was hard to take.  I know it was a comment about my health, but he always told me he loved me the way I was and he was the first man who really made me feel beautiful.  To hear that comment, it was hard not to take it the wrong way.  How can I get over twisting anything anyone says into something negative and horrible?