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Ok I in a relationship with an older man. I moved in with him about 6 months ago. I am 33 and he is 56. Things were wonderful in the beginning as they always are. I noticed on his web searchings that he was looking at yahoo personals. I asked him about this and he was defensive stating he was just curious about people and that he was not out looking for somone. Said he had never cheated on anyone and would never with me. A few months pass. He starts talking to me in the bedroom about fantasies and if I ever imagined having a threesome with two guys. Of course I said I had a fantasy about it but actually doing it was another thing. He said he had done it along time ago with 2 girls and it was great. We started playing around with the idea but me with great hesitation. About a week later he tells me that he posted on Craigs list looking for a guy to fulfill this fantasy of mine although I am thinking I could never go through with such a thing. He said he just wanted to see the responses we would get.  He soon changed his mind, with my help, stating that he couldnt share me with anyone that he loved me too much. He is an extremely jealous guy.

So it leads me to what happens next. I discovered that a few weeks later that he posted two ads on Craigs list... One looking for a threesome that he could join another couple and also an ad looking for a man to have mutual pleasure with. I responded to one of the ads as another person and he responded to it. I packed my stuff and was ready to move out. I never came out and told him what I knew and being a smart man he knew. He never tried to lie about it and said he was completely wrong. He cried and cried and cried begging me to stay and to forgive. Said he never would have followed through with it. Stating that he has a perverted mind sometimes when it comes to sex. And he only wanted to see how people would respond and what they would say. Hoping they would send him pics and hearing what they would do in the bedroom. He says he has a curious mind when it comes to people. He promised that he would never go back on that site and has opened his computer up for whenever I would like to check up on him. His remorse was real.

Now I am a patient and very easy going person. A downfall on my part at times I think. The forgiving part comes easy its the forgetting that is impossible. Can he be trusted? Would be so much easier if I wasn't in love with this guy. But I am.