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Replies to '06/06 Big Weight Issues'
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June 6, 2007, 8:06 pm PDT
 Quote From: michelyne5 I am an obese.....
I am 46 years old batting with obesity since the age of 10. first diet at the age of 12 i was put on ww eating fish 5 nites a weak ... i was then 172 pounds and the goal was to be at 112.....my mom could not let me gain weight so she deprive me of food.... except that she did not change any family habits and the food in the house was very poor quality.....
So i have been going from diet to diet for 34 years now loosing thousans of pounds but more importantly loosing my heart and my mind..... so sick of this life of mine.....of course i have attain a goal weight a lost of 115 pounds only to gain it back and more.....
In january of 2006 i decide to get help an i have had lapband surgery..... since then i have lost 80 pounds.... once again i taught i had found the magic stick how wrong i was....yes it is a tool for controlling the amount but not the quality of food .... so how good is it ..... everytime i reach my lowest point in my weigh in years i sabotage myself by gainning 10 pounds back.....i hate myself for doing it ....... when i am in control of my food and thinner i feel like a million bucks..... and then i ruined it all......WHY.........i am so tired of life and myself......will the rest of my life be spent thinking of my image and food..... if yes i don't see the point of me going on anymore..... my only hope is to find psychologic help because i don't know how to stop these taughts of suicide.....
Why is everybody and by that i mean goverment, industries and society is looking for a miracle pill to loose weight and not for the psychological aspect because from what i can read and ear it is all in the head.....
HELP"""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""" Every time I try to lose weight, I give up. I realize its not "dieting"... its a lifetime change. Unless I am willing to make the changes in my eating plan for good, the weight will win.
What puzzles me are magazines. They show beautiful cakes on their covers and then in bold letter "...how to lose 10 pounds in 10 days". Weight losing companies sell desserts. Dr. Phil, why do they do that? LOL, can we have the cake and eat it too?
Dr. Phil that comment you made about eating the cardboard instead of the cereal.........priceless. I use splenda also, but its the other stuff I eat I "gotta get real" with. If cardboard is good enough for a goat, maybe it is good enough for me.
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