Quote From: sherrym38I am a monther of 4. I have 4 children. 22 years, 19 years and 6 month old twins.
My husband and I were under the impression he could not have children, but the Dr's were wrong. We have been married 7 years and now blessed w/ identical twin baby boys. I love them with all my heart however I do suffer from PPD. In the begining of my pregnancy, my mom was in the hospital due to symptoms of her cancer. She died 11/25/05 (the day after Thanksgiving), my 19 year old son was preparing to leave for Marine boot camp (nothing I recommend for a pregnant mom!), we were planning my daughters wedding and I was severely anemic.
When the babies were born, thank God they were healthy and the pregnancy went very well for my age (41 at delivery). After they came home, they suffered from colic and so the depression began. I felt that as an experineced"" mom I should be able to handle this without help. I was completely sleep deprived and was still morning the death of my mother and missing my son more than ever.
I still have not asked for anti depression medication, I am hoping that I can snap out of this. I sometimes just want to run away. I rarley get a break from the babies and then feel guilty when I do. I have such mixed emotions, at times I just can't wait until I can break free but I am scared that I wont come back..no kidding..never ever come back. Then at times, I just can't stand the thought of being apart from them for even one second. I work from home and have a wonderful nanny that cares for them when I work..but I do get cabin fever.
Any thoughts or helpful hints would be appreciated.
Sherry
If not, why not? They're his kids too. Maybe he could take care of them for you, for a couple of hours so you can go for a walk. Getting out of the house without the twins might be a great stress relief for you. Try not to feel guilty. As Dr. Phil says, "You can take care of those boys better if you take care of their mother." Give yourself a break. You need it. Even a 21 year old mother would have her hands full with twins.
You are doing the best you can, and that's obviously pretty darn good, or you wouldn't come back. What I will suggest is that you go to the doctor and get a prescription for some anti-depressants. It is not a sign that you are a failure as a mother. On the contrary, it is quite the opposite. There is no shame in getting help from chemical sources. You might be surprised at how well they help. Don't worry about what anyone else thinks. They don't even need to know, if you don't want to tell them.
Take care of yourself, so you can take care of your family.
Bye from Australia.
Ruthieg
