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September 12, 2005, 7:58 pm PDT
 Quote From: teri_id Life will present us with challenges in order to make us stronger, kind of like training for the big race...and that the grand event comes and all of our cumulative skills will be called upon in order to handle the situation at hand.
I don't know if this is true or not, yet there have been times in my life where I have had to say "Creator must be setting me up for something BIG!", as I was also told that God does not give you more than you can handle.
The way I see it Brenda, you are the person who will be ready when everyone else has either lost interest or lost sight to help. You will be kind yet add the lightness that will be needed for others to cope. Your humor has it's place, you know.
I too am working/procrastinating on Chapter 4, yet finding more and more strength to face those moments with an open mind.
One of the wonders of this is I am recalling more happy childhood memories, which for years I was unable to do. Even though this has not healed any relationships between my parents and I, I can now say they did work to create a good life, as misguided as they were. We are all allowed our mistakes.
You are precious, Brenda! Thank you Teri In many ways, Chapter 4 seems like a walk through Death Valley, for me. Interestingly, I’ve remembered some wonderful and caring people in my past. I just have such a confusing mix of stuff in Chapter 4. I’m not really sure that I decided on ‘feelings’ in instances that simply involved survival. I’m just not sure. I think that there were times in which I just moved from one task to the next without ever considering how I felt. I think that I just kept on moving without any real consideration for how I actually felt. I’m also, realizing that I spent at least 3 years in a Gestalt Group ‘verbally processing’ the circumstances and situations without any real ‘feelings’ about the circumstances and situations. Even in some of those scary Group exercises, I spent more time nodding and agreeing than I did in ‘feeling’ anything. I don’t know if this is detachment or if I simply did not have the luxury of thinking about how I felt. I don’t even know if I give myself permission to HAVE negative feelings about my early history. I say that because early in my history, even among the adults in my life, the focus was on my mother. I’m not really sure there was a lot of time for anyone to focus on much else. It was sort of like there just wasn’t any room for anything, else. I am giving this a lot of thought. (I do intermittently have some little splashes of ‘feelings’.) Thank you for the wonderful words. I have these wonderful people, like yourself, on this message board offering me much needed feedback, care and incredible support!!! I am so grateful!!!
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