Replies to '12/04 Heroin Twins: The Intervention, Part 3'

Yes, it was a methadone clinic and I weened myself off over the course of an 8-month period.  I took myself down 5 mg's at a time every two weeks.  I got a job and kept busy with my child and kept believing that I was going to be able to get clean. 

I leaned on my spiritual faith, a lot.

I knew that even when I was swearing to God that I wouldn't do this or that, that He knew what was my true truth.....He knew I was sick & addicted and I also believe that He knew well that my promises were empty.  I held onto that with all my might AND I was determined to get thru it.

Major turns of events happened during the healing time and I'd be glad to share that in private with you if you want....my email address is LJordan@bendcable.com.  and I'd love to talk more.  I could seriously write a book on the things that went on during healing but I'll be glad to share. 

And no, I didn't really understand the ability to eat...I puked everything I tried to keep down when getting clean BUT I was getting clean off of opiates alone, not the other.  I don't know if there is something w/that.

28 years, Melissa is a long ass time.....but you can beat this thing, I swear it !!  Believe in yourself.  See the flip side.  I've been told that the the yin/yang side represents both the dark side and the light side but the light side doesn't just come on it's own.  The same levels of bad & darkness that we've had during the struggles with addictions (I started using at age 12 and slowly progressed to the heroin addiction) that lasted over 15+ years have the ability to get to the same levels of good, of positive....but we've got to create it.  Believe in it.  Reach for it.  KNOW that we can get past it.

Write me anytime...>I'll give you all the 'glorified' details of recovery if you want to hear it.

Blessings of Peace ~

I just watched the show today (I tivo it) and I NEEDED to write a note on here on going through withdrawls.  First let me say that I am a big Dr. Phil fan, but very very angry with the way they treated her.  Nobody knows what absolute misery withdrawls are like unless you go through it, there is no other feeling.  I was on Oxycontin and Heroin for a long time, and this August just celebrated my 5th year clean.  If I was treated like the twin, I would have left.  You cannot have a meaninful conversation about your future while you are dope sick!  You need to get the drugs out of your system before you start your recovery, thats why most treatment centers put a patient through detox, with no contact with anyone else, until they are stable.  Only then can the healing began. 

By the way, to answer your question, I could not eat either.

Also, I know that this is a REALLY hard part in your recovery, it took my body about a year and a half to get back to normal.  I would strongly reccomend not doing the methodone route, it is a very easy crutch...and methadone makes you more dope sick than other opiates.  I feel like it is trading one addiction for another.  I have been counseling since I have been clean and sober, and I have seen so many people become addicted to methadone, because we are addicts, and always well be. If one works, two will be better. Its best just to do it on your own, and you will feel better not having to depend on a pill to make you function....Isnt that why we got away from drugs in the first place? 
Anyway, keep up the good work.  It is the hardest thing you will ever do, but life is so much better without having to rely on something to get you going...but yourself.