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September 20, 2005, 7:10 am PDT
Fears and Phobias
Quote From: forgetingI have been trying to figure out a whole lot about myself in the past few months since I almost lost it, I've come up with a few things I think I'm dealing with: social phobia, specific Phobia's (dark, cemicals, diseases) obsessions and well a general state of anxiety each day. I work full time but my thoughts wonder all over the place, I have attackes in meeting and when I'm put on the spote infront of people. I have a 3 year old who when is scared at night needs me and I'm just as scard myself??? I have slept with my own night light for 5 years. I become paralized in fear feeling like someone is there with me. I feel like I'll sufficate if I don't turn the light on. I don't talk about the disease topic... it just freaks me out.
I try to talk to a social worker but hey I have a social phobia so I just clam up and smile and nod like I'm o.k but really I'm just screaming inside. Now I am only going like once a month which does nothing but what can I say?? I don't feel like I'm getting any help to deal with this stuff but I gess I'm realizing it is just up to me.... I am reading a anxiety book but I don't feel confident that this is enough. I wish I could just shake this off....
I don't know if a medication would help me but I do feel like I need to take the level down at least a notch I'm starting to think of quiting my job because of the stress and exostion it causes me just to get in there is alot. I don't want to make anything worst.
any advice?? I understand about being affraid of the dark. I was really affraid for many years. What I did was, I had to keep reminding myself that I was okay. And that there was nothing out there. I actually watch horror flicks now just to keep my mind straight that life isn't like "Nightmare on Elm Street" or "Friday the 13th". I too kept a nightlight AND the door open for years. I would go places with friends at night, their kids would get scarred and then they would get mad at me because I was just as scarred as them. They said I was a bad influence. I am talking about just a few years ago and I am 43 yrs.old. So I understand. I have been there. But you have to keep telling yourself that you are okay, the Lord will protect you and put yourself in positive situations. Don't go in a dark alley around midnight. Take Care Liz
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