Quote From: nouchka_1Hi everyone !
My name is Sandy and I'm new here.
Scared...to live...
Im scared of speaking my mind,
I'm scared of saying my opion,
I'm scared of telling people they matter to me,
Im scared of talking to people I want to impress,
Im scared of getting absolutely drunk,
Im scared of dancing freely in a club,
Im scared of showing that Im enjoying myself,
I'm scared of showing my true emotions
Im scared of what people will think of me,
Im scared of giving my everything,
Im scared of talking to a guy I like,
Im scared of asking people for favors,
Im scared of getting hurt,
I'm scared of disappointment,
I'm scared of giving my best,
I'm scared of falling and not getting up again,
I'm scared of not being able to over come these fears,
Im so scared of failure that Im afraid to live. PS: this isn't a suicide note. It's just how I feel because I never feel like I can be my authentic me. I tend to have a face on... just because I'm scared of so many things. I'm starting to read the new book, I hope it can help me on my way of change. I have realized in the past months that III need to change. I used to think "oh when I get older, things will change...", I'm turning 21 next week and things haven't changed. So I guess now it's up to me.
Check out Harriet Lerner's book FEAR AND OTHER UNIVITED GUESTS .. what you are really experiencing are fear issues and you can learn to step thru them and live your life. It was a wonderful book that helped me to understand fear .....
You can probably get it from your local library.
