Quote From: ladieejayI am 53 years old. Maybe it's my age, but for some reason, I have very few chilhood memories. I remember once being abused by a step-grandfather when I was about 6 years old. Although I remember only once, He was around for years and this is my only memory of those years. I also remember being abused by an older cousin when I was 8 or 9 years old. Do most people my age have alot of childhood memories or am I blocking them for some reason? Do I need or even want to remember? How does this affect my authentic self if I have these questions? Do I just ignore them and work with what I've got?
I just know that I share this whole few childhood memories problem. The whole supposed blocking thing, that gets bandied around.
I'm kind of working through my own issues, but nothing I can say like this, or not as direct - more just my own knowledge of abusive behaviours and how I find that life can be more like a film, where everything is just how abusers want them to be.
I just know that if one doesn't have the memories one would like or believe are so, and it can be suppressed and come out in different ways.
And be changed.
That like a filing system, one has to look in a different place, for them.
That people are messy (inside) and need to be accepted for this and not to try and do to them what was done to you - clean and polish human imperfections - when this has a negative affect, with long term side-affects, like blocks.
That's my experiences, anyway.
Taemanai
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