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I too was sensitive when it came to authority figures .. it has  a lot to do with growing up being told that parents, teachers, adults were always right and I had no rights or I was too young to know different.

My definition to SENSITIVE is ...  I can hear and see what they are doing; however, I don't have to join them.  For me it was a really harsh lesson ... I wanted to fit in ... to be a part of the team; however, it wasn't ever going to be because I was already different.  I talked different, I acted different.  However, I had to do things like CONFRONTATIONS .. I actually had my bosses' secretary set up 2 meetings ... one with the Administrative Officer and the Executive Officer ... because I saw them as attacking me.

I met with the AO and my boss first; then the EO, AO, and my boss ...   and discovered that my boss had only told me the stuff that made me angry ... that she had left off some really nice stuff and I actually turned to her and asked her WHY DID YOU WANT ME SO ANGRY?  WHY DIDN'T YOU TELL ME ABOUT THE GOOD STUFF?    she couldn't answer me. 

I did this confrontation and it was the scariest thing I ever did .. however, I had to know the truth and it's one of the reasons I realized that I had to leave there .. however, she made sure I couldn't ... she had power ... she was connected to power ... and power doesn't fix it self because it's ignored.  I realized then Feliss, that I was walking a totally different path .. even now, I see it.

When my friends talk about their jobs, I see it differently ...  I see their fears and the fears that the jobs bring with them.  It's just so crazy isn't it?  But it's not ... When you see the world without the blinders on ... you see it for what it really is.