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September 22, 2005, 11:21 am PDT
 Quote From: lonalea200 How I got help was when I realized that medication is not a cure all. I have both Bi-polor and Schitzophrenia. I was diagnosed with this years ago, but didn't start healing untill the last few years. It is like any other illness. A diabetic can take insulin, but they still need to watch their diet. A person with heart problems needs their heart pills but still needs to watch how much cholesterol they eat. I feel the same is with mental illness. The medications help in minimizing symptoms, but I still need to pay attention to how I respond to situations and change the behavior. No one will change it for me nor can they. I can only change myself. I know a lot of people say this, but have you ever tried to convince someone to change their thinking ? You can bring the food, but you can't make me eat it, only I can swallow the food. An example : Being honest with yourself is important. I can take my bi-polor medication, but I must also realize that when my body stays up too late and I get little sleep, I know I am asking for trouble. My body doesn't react like everybody elses'. Mine goes into hyper mania. So I take the medicine to help control the illness but I still need to control what I do. How can you fix a problem unless you know what it is? Once you are honest with yourself, you can actually improve yourself. I am certianly not saying for people to stop therapy or medication manegment, but I get tired of people expecting the medication to make everything go away. And working with your own thought is not easy. Matter of fact it is very difficult. But it is worth it. We are worth it. Thanks for letting me share. I was diagnosed with Bi polar too...I worked from the inside out with Dr. Phil I actually think I have this thing called D.I.D. this girl posted it was me to a tee....
What or how did you learn about the Schizophrenia? What age were you and what happened if I am getting to personal Im sorry....I am really proud that you are so open and able to speak about this. Being Bi polar pisses me off.
When did this happen for me? I had a really really great talk with my MOM the other day....First time in ALONG LONG time I am talking YEARS trust me.....she said she noticed a change in me in middle school...HELLO why didnt she get me help then?
That's when I started smoking weed and drinking to cover the shame and guilt of what my brother did to me he sexually abused me for years and years. My father touched me and well all thats over now...But I think you really never get over your father trying to stick his tongue down your throat and grabbing your chest when your developing and from what my older sister says he did to her what my older brother did to me and well that crap is all just twisted up and disgusting.
My body also goes into hyper mania. Sometimes I frett...I worry and worry just like my Momma I have noticed. I dont want that tape playing in my head. I do not believe I have Schitzopherenia but you are so well educated on the subject let me warn you though maybe if you start talking to me I might think I have it so......maybe Im not sure....
But everything that girl on the depression board printed out I can admit too honestly about the D.I.D it really rang true....I have to go for now..See you soon. I mean talk to you hopefully soon. I am going for another evaluation ASAP I went yesterday but I picked the wrong place....even though it was an eating disorder place and I am having food problems that shrink was cruel to me... |
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