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September 20, 2005, 7:13 am PDT
 Quote From: lostgirl I suffer from bipolar1, borderline personality disorder, reactive attachment disorder, obsessive compulsive disorder, and PSTD and depression. What I didn't know that I had these disorders all my life, they have gotten worse over the years. Now finding out is devastating to me and made me very angry, and I wished somebodt told me earlier so I could of taken of the problem. Ten years ago I got sober, and after I've been sober for a while I still felt these emotions were going up and down. No matter how hard I try to take care of myself and try to heal I felt I was not going no place with my life. I went to counseling the first time ten years ago to try to heal from the past. I was in so much pain I could not even leave my place I was scared of everything and the pain was so great. I thought I was dying from the pain from the past I had awful things happen to me. Now today I still suffer and the depression at time it's so great at times I just isolate from the world and can't even leave me place at times. All I want to is let go of the past for some reason I can't let go of it I still suffer from the pain. The way my family treated me and banded me as a child they gave up on me. I'm so tired of living this way, and try to get honest with me but why is this pain still here? Why wont it go away? After 10 years trying to take of this pain away but I feel I'm doing something wrong? Am I failure? What am I doing wrong? There are times I want to give up because I've done all I can to take care of this problem. I've been in counseling for 7 years all together I think it's a waste of time for me, I still feel like a piece of crap. When I get depress I run and hide from the world, and want to be left alone. I've done all I can to get help here even on meds, I still something is mssing here. I'm very angry I feel nobody is listening to me at times, I feel they think they are right and I'm always wrong. I feel at times people take advantage of me because of my illness. I feel like a piece of junk and worthless hopless and worthless.
Let me introduce you to a nice person I just met who has had a really rough time of it and is due for things to begin getting better and better everyday: YOU. Also, me and everybody here. Did you hear Dr. Phil say on September 14, 2005, to list 10 assets you have each day? You can get a simple spiral notebook or just any piece of paper. Title SELF MATTERS includes and sign your name with confidence. DR. PHIL QUOTE: "You're the one who talks to you, all day, every day. Characterize messages you send yourself by a rational and productive optimism." REMEMBER: SELF MATTERS includes "YOU" * "The most important relationship you will ever have is with yourself" * Dr. Phil Quote The below helps me. Read beginning with Home Care in first link... www.nlm.nih.gov/medlineplus/ency/article/003213.htm www.joelosteen.com/site/PageServer?pagename=FullSchedule IF YOU'D LIKE TO RECEIVE A FREE DAILY POSITIVE MINUTE E-MAILED TO YOU EACH A.M. JUST GO TO LINK BELOW on hourofpower.org www.hourofpower.org/email/about.html Do doctor approved exercise like walks or dancing to music in your living room. Even just a walk every day to the corner and back. Exercise can improve breathing as shallow breathing has been linked to exacerbate and precipitate depression, anxiety and panic. I truly hope things get better for you because, as Dr. Phil even wrote a book on, SELF MATTERS includes YOU. Hugs and prayers, SEA SELF MATTERS (AUTHENTIC SELF): www.drphil.com/articles/article/73 |
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