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I have been verbal, mentally, and physically abused from my father at only a couple of months old to the age 30.  My ex-husband and ex-b/f's also abused me...because I let them. When I fought back...it only made things worse!  After a hiatus of men for 3 years, a career change, and new life, I met this wonderful man that changed my life!  Or so I thought.  He doesn't abuse me, but makes me relive the pain I went thru.  I am angry, take things out on him...and have really ruined our life and future together.  We don't make love anymore, we don't talk...just yell.  He goes to therapy for issues with his family...which are completely different than what I grew up with.  I live with the issue of him growing up with a silver spoon in his mouth, and I had nothing...I earned everything I ever received!  He makes me feel like it's a sin.  He recently quit his job 3 months ago to pursue a new career, but has nothing but a dead end.  Everyday, I deal with his loss.  When I joined him in his therapy session...I didn't think his therapist dealt with his depression.  I have been thru many years to get to a good point in life...and now I'm back to where I was when I was a teen.  I'm pursuing therapy myself, but I feel like there is no hope...do you ever get over the hate and distrust completely??!!