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July 30, 2005, 9:09 am PDT
 Quote From: marcia52 I have said a prayer for you. You have and are doing all that you can for your beloved. And he knows it. You feel guilty because you have 1001 things you should have done and didn't. That is the past and you can not do anything to change it. It wasn't done deliberately and dealing with guilt isn't going to help you with your beloved, Mackay.
Give him your special attention and it means doing whatever you feel is the right thing.
Know that you have learned from this sad time in your life. You will never let it happen to Mackay again or to any of your other beloveds.
I came home from a trip to find my beloved Victor (my cat) had an open sore. He got hit by a car for the 2nd time. I can't keep him in my home and I can't live with guilt because it's his choice to be an outside cat. all I can do is pay the medical bill (for the 2nd time in 4 years) and pray that this time he's learned that when it comes between him and a car - he's going to lose. The first, I felt so guilty but then I had to remember, they do not listen or behave in ways that we do. In fact, an animal when hurt will hide it because in the wild, they would be left to die.
Because you are doing your best and you are taking care of him with all that you can - know that Mackay understands. He will survive because you give him strength and love daily. Marcia52,
Thank you for your kind words. As I told Ritehere, you may be happy to know Mackay is doing better. He is interested in the things around him and has even had the energy to be cranky with the baby goats...which is good in my book.
Ritehere had a good point, giving human attributes to an animal. Mackay is a goat, which I have come to learn are quite spiritual beings in some ways...and they are loyal and want to please. Mackay loves affection, and he is getting quite a lot, as well as good care, good medicine, and good food. ( We cut fresh willow every day to help him manage pain.) I have also discovered that I will go into places I would have never considered before because of this. I have lost close to 10 pounds from loss of appetite cleaning this wound, yet I find I can handle this. I have also learned that Mackay knows when something is helping him because, despite the obvious pain in puts him in, he stands still for me to clean him and give him shots. So...even though he suffered, he and I have both learned from this a trusting of sorts. I figure that is pretty cool.
Thank you so much for your prayer and your understanding. Teri |
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