Replies to '04/12 Twin Tug of War'

This case will not end well either for Alison of the Needhams. How old are these children now? Arent they around 2? I can only hope they are younger than that. Intentionally or unintentionally, are these children being poisoned against Allison in the first place? So in the event Allison was to get her children back, how would she be treated? A lot of ppl really dont see the gravity and the severity of having hypermesis on top of the post partum time of pregnancy. Not only do you have to deal with severe starvation - you have to deal with a lot of guilt. Speaking for me, at 14 weeks trapped and confined to a hospital bed with needles all over my body - feeling severe pain in my stomache and throat from the constant nausea and throwing up. People take enjoying/eating food for granted. You get to the point where you HATE to eat -- because it hurts so badly. You think because the days turn into weeks and the weeks turn into months that it will never go away. So at 14 weeks youre praying for death. Youre them praying for miscarriage - oh because you cannot handle this. Thoughts of abortion come into your mind - because you just cant handle this cant fathom living like this - would the baby eventually kill you? is it a baby or a parasite- - you cant talk cant argue - can only stare at the ceiling of your hellacious hospital room listening to your mother or family goodheartedly begging you to eat - sip this water - eat this cracker!!! You keep begging god for death - you beg for termination of the pregnancy. then you bleed--- and the horror of the situation hit s you --- the energy comes back for maybe 10 mins an you beg and beg god NOW to not take your baby - you are desperate begging god and whatever thing out there to let him live --- and the bleeding doesnt stop and you realize -- you begged for this -- you caused this

Of course -- the baby didnt terminate - thanks fully he was born a little over 9 weeks ago! But these are some of the thoughts that go through a HG mothers mind. These are the thoughts that go through someone who would NEVER EVER think like this before, someone who is stable! Suicide and such is NOT stable. The illness makes it that way -- not only the illness itself but the physical reaction you have to your body

Now back to Allison - her case was much worse than mine. I cringe to think of the horror she suffered. I cringe to think of the horror she is suffering now. If she lost her children -- at 6 weeks her already fragile body would have deterritate because the stress of that would affect her. So lets fast forward to Christmas- - yes - I can understand what she did. I dont condone it but I can understand it --- and looking into my self, unfortunately looking at my precious soon - I would do ANYTHING for him - anything -- and NOOONE will take him from me - yeah I can understand

And I find it also amusing - (reading thru the first 30 or so pages) that all of the HG mothers defend Allison - that should tell America something!!!! It is an illness - it is a huge problem - something must be done!

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