Sara,
I was too, so proud of you expaining Gabe's life story. You are very strong and have a kind spirit. The show touched me deeply, my child too died from what was ruled a suicide. I know have knowledge that it may have not been--no note--her H.S. cheerleading squad, at least one cheerleader was into this--and, her sorority sisters confirmed this practice being on the UGA campus--also said that it originated from the GA Tech campus--this is where my 19 year-old daughter's boyfriend went to school.
Please do not let people let you feel guilty for not being there for your other son--and YOU should not feel guilty either. Everyone grieves in their own way and this process takes time--whose to say how much unless you have been there. Right? Well I have as well. And, I still am taking day by day. I too have basically "not been there at all: for my daughter, then 5, now just turned 6 and in first grade. YOU have to get better before you can help ANYONE--please know that in years to come, he will understand what you went through. Right now, he is a precious part of your life, but, still very young. Maybe my child was so young and never saw ,"Sissy" hanging, is how I am "getting off" a little easier than you. Other will not understand, but YOU will. Not only do you have the guilt of Gabe's death, but also, sending your others to wake him for school. I could say something STUPID like, "It's not your fault--you didn't DO anything wrong as a parent," but, you and I both know how shallow those words are. If you EVER need to speak to someone please email me. I am so sorry for your loss. I plan to spend tonight visiting his website. Hope that helps you some--I have ofeeling it may. I will honor him...............Stephanie Also, I wanted you to know that the following day, I contacted Courtney's HS counselor and explained this show, your story, and how it may be on the campus. She promised to follow-up.
