Quote From: serene
I have been on different medications. I have taken zoloft, xanex,lithium,trazadone. I also drink. I usually take vicadin, or percocet also. But lately I haven't been on anything and it's driving me nuts. I don't think I am going through withdrawls because I have done that before, it's just my emotional status isn't so good.
Sorry about the typo in the title - I can't correct it. If this board doesn't drive me back to drinking, nothing will!
The problem I'm having is that it's hard to provide answers when you aren't asking any questions. And the answers you're providing are too vague to be useful. I don't mean to sound witchy -- it's just that I still have no idea if you might not be going through withdrawal. When you say you haven't taken anything "lately"...what specifically does that mean? Four days? A week? Six months? And then how much are you drinking each day?
The reason I'm fixating on this is that I don't agree it couldn't be withdrawal (unless it's literally been months since you took anything besides alcohol). Withdrawal is both short term and long term and can last up to a year. The problem becomes more complicated with multiple drugs, and then even more when you include alcohol, espccially with the xanax.
The other thing -- it really sounds to me like you need to be seen pretty quickly by a physician or mental health professional (but not the one you've been seeing). It sounds like you're battling too many things right now all by yourself...is there anyone you could talk to? If money is an issue, does your community have free clinics? Is there anyone in your "real life" who knows your whole story who could step in and help? I know when I was going through some of this, before I went to rehab and treatment, I just dumped it all in my best friend's lap. It was amazing how much that helped...in fact, she played a big role in finding my rehab and getting me there.
There's always hope and there's always an answer, and it starts with unburdening yourself somehow.
