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June 6, 2007, 8:10 pm PDT
 Quote From: wezey1 My son was diagnosed with bipolar disorder June 2005 and has been in 4 mental hospitals so far. The last one was 10 days the first part of May 2007. He is also diagnosed with agoraphobia and panic disorder along with it. His coulsellor tells me I HAVE to practice Tough Love and let him fly or fall, but how do I DO that? He has attempted suicide in the past, he threatens it now when he gets really depressed, he begs us to "let me go" meaning so he can kill himself and be out of this hell he is living in.
I know he is in pain and I have done all I know to help. It is wearing me out and doesn't seem to be doing much more than keeping him alive at least for now. He is on about 4 different meds and I am not sure they are working or that he is taking them as he should - which is a big problem with this disorder.
Tonight I got really angry with him. He is living in a house I own and I am paying the utilities. I told him he was not to let his ex-wife even come in the house because of all she has done to him and today I find out she has been practically living there. I told him that if he is to continue to live there, she will not be staying there. So now he says he is leaving. I suppose back to her house. She has had him put in jail and done all kinds of things to him - I could write a book just on her alone.
I am hurt as much as angry over this and that is saying a lot because I am REALLY angry! I know I have to let go now and let him fly or fall, but it really hurts not knowing if he will live until even next month or year without support as he chooses really bad friends and self-medicates with either alcohol, drugs or both.
Can anyone tell me how I let go knowing it is very possible he might commit suicide when he feels everyone has abandoned him? He has one really good and nice friend. He is not seeing him much now because he is seeing his ex more. He seems to only be able to be friends with one person or rely on one person at a time.
This REALLY HURTS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! How old is your son? |
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June 7, 2007, 7:05 pm PDT
Quote From: wezey1 My son was diagnosed with bipolar disorder June 2005 and has been in 4 mental hospitals so far. The last one was 10 days the first part of May 2007. He is also diagnosed with agoraphobia and panic disorder along with it. His coulsellor tells me I HAVE to practice Tough Love and let him fly or fall, but how do I DO that? He has attempted suicide in the past, he threatens it now when he gets really depressed, he begs us to "let me go" meaning so he can kill himself and be out of this hell he is living in.
I know he is in pain and I have done all I know to help. It is wearing me out and doesn't seem to be doing much more than keeping him alive at least for now. He is on about 4 different meds and I am not sure they are working or that he is taking them as he should - which is a big problem with this disorder.
Tonight I got really angry with him. He is living in a house I own and I am paying the utilities. I told him he was not to let his ex-wife even come in the house because of all she has done to him and today I find out she has been practically living there. I told him that if he is to continue to live there, she will not be staying there. So now he says he is leaving. I suppose back to her house. She has had him put in jail and done all kinds of things to him - I could write a book just on her alone.
I am hurt as much as angry over this and that is saying a lot because I am REALLY angry! I know I have to let go now and let him fly or fall, but it really hurts not knowing if he will live until even next month or year without support as he chooses really bad friends and self-medicates with either alcohol, drugs or both.
Can anyone tell me how I let go knowing it is very possible he might commit suicide when he feels everyone has abandoned him? He has one really good and nice friend. He is not seeing him much now because he is seeing his ex more. He seems to only be able to be friends with one person or rely on one person at a time.
This REALLY HURTS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! That is a personal decision that only you can make. I guess it all comes down to unconditional love. God blessed you with this child and it is hard and can be exhausting. I am Bipolar and my sister is Paranoid Schizophrenic. She puts my parents through so much more than I have because I stay on my meds and am in close contact with my docs. For me it was hard to get to where I am today and I am only 27 and was diagnosed when I was 15. Believe you me it has not been easy, I have to take things one day at a time. My mom and dad have thought of just giving up plenty of times but every time something happens they are right there. I believe though in my heart you feel that you could give up but please think of the circumstances and what and how you would feel if he does have a sucessful suicide. What would that do to you and other family members that just couldn't take it anymore. Also, even if you do decide to move on with your life (so to speak) you will always worry about him and I believe that would be worse on you. Painful or not I believe it would give you some solace to know what is going on in his life. You may not always like it but as a mother it is your duty from God to take care of your children whether they are "normal" or are in need of unconditional love from all family members. I hope I helped and gave you something to think about.
Ivy27 |
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