Quote From: serene
I mean that I haven't been on any pills lately. My doctor gave me trazadone to help me sleep, but I have to take 3 or 4 for them to work. The last time I took those were 3 days ago. I drink about everyday, I guess it varies. I think the only reason I am not taking mor medication is because I don't have it. I don't really have any friends, all my friends were in the program and now that I am drinking I don't talk to them. I agree that I need to be seen but I don't have insurance and I don't think there are any free clinics where I live, but I could be wrong, not real sure how to find out. Thanks.
Hmmm...I'm not sure why you're being given an anti-depressant for sleep problems!
I do understand your confusion and feeling overwhelmed. Here's specifically what I would do:
There has to be some sort of help available to get you started. But you have to do the legwork. You can do this either online or with the yellow pages, but try to find social services for your city (or, if you live in a rural area, your county). Call these people up and explain what's happening with you. If you can't "deal with this" on your own, and are willing to state where you live, I'd offer to do a quick online scan to see what I can find. (I probably shouldn't offer this, but you sound too alone right now and if you're really that overwhelmed, sometimes even this can be too much).
Also, you're obviously seeing a doctor. He's responsible for both your care and the drugs he's prescribed. Call his office and demand to see him asap!
Even though you don't have insurance, there are certain situations where care has to be provided. In fact, another option is to simply show up at your nearest ER and tell them you need help NOW!
I know this sounds a bit dramatic, but it's obvious you can't (and don't want to) go on like this. And you shouldn't have to! Somewhere underneath all this garbage I'm sure there's a very cool person who wants to live again. But if you're telling the truth when you say you have no one to help you out with this, then YOU have to step up to the plate and fight for YOURSELF.
