That when I've been very active, I've left others, issues are left un dealt with etc. by the waste-side, that resurface.
I know I'm supposed to be active etc..
But then, I have a whole life time to lift my game, and be stronger in doing so and cause less resentment. ie. That I may be getting the good things without working for it or doing what is difficult for someone of my type. I was recently told I have severe problems and I don't know what to think. In the tests, I did do poorly, especially in memory (very short-term) and in social areas ie. Asperugus Syndrome, the name given. A bit angry about it, because it's almost saying it is okay to push me around and not listen to me and that any sensitivity I have or had was without warrant because my emotions and mental level were not normal. But would anyone have thought that, by the criticisms I got for others for not being smarter, and others, being too smart, I think I know now why. The resentment and how background can almost debilitate a person who is perfect and almost fix people who have abnormalities, just because paople are more accepted and functioning at acceptable levels, and their brains are balanced and coordinated appropriately, even if perception and humanilty and understanding is sacrificed or impaired.
Mozart (who went deaf) was poisoned by arsenic from mines, I believe that this is much more common in disorders. Even the likelihood of problems due to immunisation because things don't grow in the pattern that was there at birth. ie. ear-canal tubes frequently affected.
Some of us seem to be born to do things this way.
Maybe it's in the heavens as with Macbeth, who knows? But sometimes the tragedy of it, hidden by other issues such as minor infections that some how cause problems/severe mental problems, as when people are hit by lightening, that aren't there for others, must have reasons behind them that makes sense of so many things that can't be diagnosed, causes changes that can only be remedied with a combination of studies. ie. Brain-function, DNA, experiences, trauma etc.
Thanks
Belinda
