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my friend told me today that i am negative and behave like a machine, she is right,i am emotionless now, my broken heart will never heal, i want to die more than i want to live.

do u know what i like?????

i like to hurt people emotionally, i didnot know this truth until today, because i hurt a person who really cares for me,i destroyed her life, i donot know what to do, i just wanna die.u know now how hurrible i am. i am so sad coz i was such a lovely girl,i like good things for people, i had never any intention to break other people's hearts,i would never do something like that.

i really need someone to help me,i need professional help, i need to see a therapist, but unfortunately, there is no therapist in my area,but i cannot believe that i am that bad.

u know? this person i am talking about was crying, what was i doing???? i hid a smile,( i cannot believe that it is me) i am not a bad person, i used to be kind,i used to care for people.

u know??? after all i stay and cry nearly every night.

something happened yesterday made me fine, my cousins were fighting, i had nothing to do except i interfered, he was so nervous and slaped me on the face, oh my god, i cried, i was happy and fine when i was crying because it had been few days that i didnot cry on, so i was fine coz i believe that crying get the bad emotions out of me.

if u have any advise for me, plz tell me how to love again after being hurt and with a broken heart