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Sorry for the long post, but I just need to get this off my chest.

I've been kind of struggling with this for some time now and would like to get a second or third opinion on my situation. . . . . . . .

I am no longer talking to my so-called friends due to some great misunderstanding. There were 3 friends, let's call them Nicole, Amy, and Tamara, we were all mutual friends. It has been almost 2 years since we last spoke. I have known Nicole the longest out of all of them. We were friends for 5 years at the time. I knew Amy for almost 4 and Tamara for 2 years. We would always go out whether it was for breakfast, lunch, or dinner, to the movies, to the bars/club, etc. Sometimes I would question our friendship since both Nicole and Amy would make me feel dumb or talk down to me at times calling me "slow" or looking me up from head to toe like they were jealous of me or using me for things they needed but when I needed something from them they weren't available most of the time and Tamara was hardly ever around despite that she was working her way through school and was always tired which I understand that. Sadly, Tamara was the only decent friend who was nicer to me even though we hardly got to spend time with her.

To make a long story short, Amy had been dating this guy (let's call him Adam) and she was going to hook me up with her at-the-time boyfriend's cousin (let's call him David) who had just been signed to the Chicago Bears at the time. She never did set me up with him and Nicole told me that it wouldn't be a good idea to date him since I would have to worry about groupies, him cheating on me, etc. Then 2 or 3 weeks later I hear from Amy that Nicole hooked her up with him and at the time Nicole would hardly call me or answer my phone calls during that time. I felt so betrayed by both of them and was on a revenge.

Sooner or later I hooked up with one of Amy's exes who I met online and told Adam that she was still talking to one of her ex boyfriends but I never told him that she was sleeping with him too. Then that one day that ended it all was when both of them called me on 3-way asking me if I told Adam that she was still talking to her ex. I had a bad day at work,  my boss pretty much yelled at me for a simple mistake and the guy who I was dating at the time was being a jerk. I told them I didn't say anything to him about that and felt that she was accusing me of saying that even though Nicole told me that she told Adam that she was still talking to her ex while with him. I told them I felt like they couldn't trust me and that they didn't deserve my friendship since I am a caring and giving person and that true friends wouldn't do that. They both were trying to calm me down and was telling me that they weren't trying to accuse me of anything, etc.

After that episode, they both kept calling and e-mailing me but I never responded until one time I picked up the phone and Nicole told me that her father had passed. I told her at the time that I would come to the funeral but when I spoke with Amy, she was very rude on the phone with me asking me howcome I wouldn't answer her phone calls, respond to her e-mails, etc. and I told her that I was going through a deep depression, which I was at the time, and she acted like she didn't believe me. So, I felt that it wouldn't be right to go to the funeral otherwise there would be some feeling of awkwardness. Tamara was dodging everyone's calls at the same time since she was going through a depression and then a few months later she would text message or call me and I wouldn't respond since she did the same with me and if I talked to her then I would have to talk to Nicole and Amy as well so I left it that way and never spoke to any of them since then. Should I e-mail them and apologize or just forget about it and move on? I feel guilty about the whole situation and felt like I blew this out of proportion. I felt like I burned my bridges with them. As of now, I have reunited with some good friends from college and am happier with them to be honest and actually feel like I can be myself around them. Thank you for the advice!