Replies to 'Anorexia'

 Hi, I am a 37 year old recovering anorexic.  I had become this way at the age of 11 just like you.  I had a awful childhood and have tried long and hard to overcome this disease.  I know what you are going through.  I did this to myself until I met my now husband of 18 years, who immediately noticed that something was wrong.  This was something that my mother and father never did or cared to do.  I stopped for a couple of years and then I had my son who is now 16.  When I had him I didn't gain much weight because my body was so worn down,  I had him at 6 months and 3 weeks, he was so small that it is a true miracle that he is here.   You are young you have time to have kids, get your feelings under control and take care of your self, get more healthy because this disease takes it out of you.  You deplete your body of so many things that you need.  Take your time it will come.  I also had a bad time after I had my son because of the weight and things that my parents said and did.  I had a relapse about a year after he was born and almost died.  Please be careful this disease is about control.  I didn't have any control over my life so I controlled the only thing I could my weight.  My husband and son played a big part of my recovery.  depend on someone other than yourself.  Get counseling and get checked out by a doctor.  I will talk with you and try to help you anyway I can.  I hope that you do well.  Please write me if you want to talk.  I am here to tell you that it does not help you at all to do this.  This does not help you control anything or change anything.  Write me if you want to.