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Quote From: brookewebb

well. My name is Brooke. I am 16 years old and I live with my grandparents. Unfortunatley my mother is a drug addict.(Narcotics) and my father is an accesive alcoholic. I have not lived with them for almost four years now. BUT... for some reason the levels of my depression and worries only seems to rise. Im getting older now. Ill be 17 in December.. and they bothe believe that they have all of the time in the world to be parents so they choose to put me on the backburner. and Im so tired of terrible living situations and drugs being chosen over me. I will be graduating very soon. and who knows if they will be sober enough to attend... and i know that this is an extremity but what about marriage who am i supposed to have someday walk me down the aisle?... what am I supposed to tell my children when they get upset because they are never allowed to ride in the car or spen the night at Gramma's house?... It upsets me so much to know that not only have I had to live the life of the adult for the past 4 years... and I will have to count on planning my life without them. I've gone through so much. right now I probly sound selfish but when will I get a little satisfaction?.Is it so hard to ask for parents? I am the type of person who'd do anything for anyone.... and I dont ask much from people. Also there is a no win situation. I can't walk away. Ive tried. Through the years I've developed OCD. and my biggest fear is my mom dying. I feel that if I dont see her then she'll die. I am SO sick of being the adult.... I never had a child hood of my own. I grew up on lies and being told that I'd be nothing. I've gone through so much and I just don't know what to do. I know that you can't help someone unless help is what they  seek.I'm just so confused... is it time to let go?... Please Give Me Your Opinion? HELP?