Quote From: marsplastiThank you
For me it is about the patterns. Oh for sure. Its not about the law in my case. It is about the
letting go and the closure of the life events; yes that is it.
I have been very anxious about the closure and it is making me feel ill and insecure to the point that I am literally frozen; but if I can just put closure to this and hoping it will be in a few weeks then I can move on. If I cant get the closure I am going to have a problem with moving on.
Now I really want the closure now that I know what I am dealing with; but it doesnt mean I am not anxious and scared about it.
There are things we can control and others we can't ... I had a hard time accepting this truth. You can't control your family or your ex so allow it to go the way it will.
I used to write down on a piece of paper all the things that were going on in my life ... I drew a big circle with the date in the middle and then little bubbles with all the stuff. Then I sat down and asked myself will these be in my life in 6 weeks? 6 months? And if so, how?
Then I would give it to god ... I knew that I couldn't / wouldn't know how any of these things would go because they were out of my control. I knew that I could handle anything because it was in my life and God never gives me nothing I can't handle. Sometimes, it feels like it's killing me -- however, I realize now it was just my own fears running amok in my head and I can control my feelings, actions, and thoughts.
So when I gave it to god, I then posted notes everywhere so that I could remember I had given it to God and that when it was over it would be over.
Does this help?
