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Oh, let me tell ya... this girl is about "over-loaded" in my heart and mind...

On top of this....

Got an e-mail this morning from a long time friend.. who has a pc of crap b/f and he's into her for over $4000.00 and of course, I am Never quiet on my end.. hello, I'm the same person you met and I'm not changing because you don't like what I say...

And hello, she's the one telling me about him..  ????? I'm not the one who treats you bad or owes you a cent .. but I'm the one getting the "butt chewing".. Okay, whats wrong with this picture?????

Okay Prof.. here I go.. 

(hell, I can't even bring myself to tell my Mom about this) Just told her I had to go for a few days to help with somethings..

Okay.. my Friend, is a Man..

I have know him since he was 15 (he lied and said he was 16) and was working grave-yard shift at a convince store..

At that time, I knew he was Gay..

Hubby and I took him under our wings and he's been a part of our family ever since..

He grew up with a Mom who battled the booze.. drugs and mental illness.. three yrs ago.. she was in a freak accident.. something in her car broke and the car went out of control and went in the ditch and up over the bank and onto a set of railroad tracks and a train was there and it hit her and killed her...

He deals with the mental illness.. chronic pain.. fibro and of course the huge battle of being Gay and having no self confidence  in all areas.. Has a heart of gold and funny and huge animal lover and a wonderful Person..

He was with a girl-friend, celebrating his B-day and traveled to see this wonderful museum.. They were having dinner.. there were two guys next to them.. Said they were on Vacation from Seattle Washington.

Ended up eating dinner together and laughed and just met some "new friends"..

He said he thought they were "straight"..

Ended up going downtown and hanging out..and they picked up some movies and junk food and went back to the Motel to watch movies and eat junk food.. his friend wanted a cappo,so her and one of the guys just walked down four blocks to get everyone a cappo..

And this guy.. raped him....

They freaked out and got in the car and just drove.. ended up in the town were my Pain Dr is.. two and half hours away from home..

Went to the ER..............

They did get some DNA.. but he took a shower.. but did get some DNA.. but, that's about all the info they could pass along to the Police....

So, he freaked out more.. ran to another town.. then called an old boss.. he drove over 2 hrs and picked him up and set him up in one of his rentals and he's back working at his old job.. His boss is like a Dad to him .. His family also adopted him while he was working for them..

THERE are still good people in this world.... I have to hold on to this.. because right now.. my thoughts are not in good places...

All of this took place the weekend before the 4th of Sept......

So, there is a police report and DNA.. but, not a lot to go on.... And of course the "if" and I just told him, you did what you did at the time and no one.. knows what they would have done.. so, at the time, running was what you did.. Can't go back..

And... this sick pig.. gave him 3 STD's........ I don't know which ones and I 'm just so so so...?? can't even think of a word..

No mean No.... 

So... this is the story and to be honest.. I feel like I am now breathing more normal than I have in the last  15 hours... Thanks Prof... I don't think I could have gone there with just anyone and how cool you were there with your hand out.. Thank You so much....

Okay.. I am so behind this AM.. have not even taken my meds.. ha, just ate my cantaloupe in-between words here..

Happy to report.. I am down 7 pounds this morning.. have to keep focused on making myself healthy..

Again, thanks for your friendship... I do know you care and the one person who will not judge..

Love Diana