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I am doing a bit better today.  The depression seems to be lifting a bit.  It helped that "he" was in yesterday.  It was a quick visit because his mom's roof needed a lot more than he figured so he only had about 40 minutes or so for me - much better than just phone calls, though.  He spent most of the time just holding me.  We didn't even get around to kissing hello until he'd been here nearly 15 minutes.  He came through the door, pulled me into his arms and just stood there holding me.

Hubby has behaved this week except for a couple of little tantrums.  One was because I was standing at the door when he was bringing a basket of laundry in from the car.  (I was trying to keep HIS cat inside.  I wasn't even in the way.)  The other was when I told him something "he" had said during a normal phone conversation we had while his wife was in the room with him.  I told him that "he" said to try running around the house naked to get hubby's attention.  I got a look of such utter contempt from him!  I knew he wouldn't like me to do it.  I thought he would treat it like an inside joke.  I tried it when we first got married - meeting him at the door naked when he got home from work.  Most guys would kill to have their wives do something like that for them.  My husband just acted like I didn't exist!

That look of contempt keeps happening more and more.  If he feels like that about me, why is he still here? 

And people think  we're all messed up LOL!