Quote From: kristen33 Hi there. This is my first post. I find myself here because I am feeling pretty overwhelmed with my weight. It's been an issue since I was a very young girl. I can't count the portion of my life I've wasted freaking out about my weight. I had my first child last year and had gestational diabetes. I thought that was a wakeup call and began walking everyday. That only lasted a few months and now I'm heavier than I've ever been in my life. I'm a compulsive overeater. I've never admitted that to anyone before. I know what I have to do to lose weight...I've read all the books and understand nutrition and exercise. But for some reason, I just never stick with it. I cannot figure out why I sabotage myself. I read these boards and see people discussing their "Aha moment" and I'm really wanting mine. But is that another stalling technique? That I can't start taking control of my weight until I understand why I have a problem? I'm all wrapped up in my head and am really tired of it. Any advice?
Kristen- welcome aboard I am new too I have to say finding my pay off was really hard it took a while before I admitted I had one. I finnally realized that I used my weight as a crutch to stop me from doing the things that I was too insecure to believe in myself about. My marriage has been plagued with my feelings of unworthyness, my career brought to a halt because of the fact I felt noone would want to come to a fat hairdresser, ( although I am excellent at what I do) and the fact that I allowed myself to feel like I was "in control" when I decided what and where and how I ate!!! I realized that what I thought I had "control" of I really had no control of!
It is hard I know ask yourself what do you get by being fat or what do you get to avoid?
