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July 28, 2005, 10:36 pm PDT
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Quote From: kimbrem I am at least feeling alot better today. I guess stress always impacts the way you view things and the way you react to them. I am usually better at self-deprecation in a humorous way which has a way of easing the differences with my peer-set. I have just realized lately that I have been under more stress than usual and have not been able to respond with the humor that usually makes other people feel better, and therefore myself. Instead, I have been internalizing my peers reactions to me, and that's never good. Leaves me feeling bad, and them feeling worse.
I just really need to practice that whole meditation and destress thing, i think.
Kim I have to admit .... having positive conversations with peers and people like you has helped turn my own mood around. I guess because of the vicious circle of stress and it's affect on my own self-esteem coupled with a difficult social situation, which I didn't handle as well because of an already stressed mood just acted as as reinforcement to the first negative and created a terrible circle until I could remove myself and get in a frame of mind to examine it and respond with a better response.
Some people will never like me, they have their own dialogue and events which influence their responses towards me. See.... I really am just like everyone else. I have to accept my own role in the cycle and make it as good as I can. That's my own issue. I would love to be able to just make everyone, including myself realize that just because we are different in some ways, lots of ways, lots of differences..... that we are all so very much human. There are no bionic people. Those differences are wonderful, beautiful things for the most part and I wouldn't do without them. I need to remember to do my own part in making it clear how I feel about the differences among us. Maybe the rest of the world will follow suit? I hope so. I wouldn't want everyone to be like me. I'm kinda boring.
Thanks so much to you and everyone for helping me to reach a better state of mind and be better prepared to cope with these things.
Kim
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