Replies to 'Obesity'

Hello, I am a 24 year old woman. I have been overweight all of my life, or at least as long as I can remember. I was the fat kid in school, and we moved a lot so I had to adjust to different places..with the same mean kids. Being made fun of as a child has stuck with me. I wish I knew how to forget or let it go, but I can't.  I feel like people are always staring at me, and whispering under their breath about how big I am. I have come to terms that I will never be married or have a life with this weight I carry.

I am 302 lbs. and only a mere 5ft tall. My weight is just now getting to the point where it is critical I lose weight. I have a bum knee, that slips in and out of place, I am always tired, and I cannot walk in the heat without complaining. I am 24 going on 50. I know if I continue to live like this, I may not be around too much longer.

My mother recently had the gastric bypass procedure done. She looks great, and has lost over 100 lbs. I prefer to try to continue to lose it on my own. One of my family members approached me today and told me that they feel I use this weight as a security blanket. They said I try to hide behind it, and the happy me is stuck inside.That brought tears to my eyes, because it is true.

Every time I feel an emotion I eat. I even eat when I am not hungry. I feel so disgusting when I look at myself in the mirror, I do not even recognize myself anymore.

I wish I could just wake up and be a healthy weight. I need to find a motivation, and I need to confide in someone who understands, and who can help me through this time.

I recently joined a weight loss program, and I plan to be 115 lbs by Christmas of 2006.

Lastly, for those who can understand where I am coming from, how can someone like me excercise without feeling like they are going to pass out, from a 3 minute walk?

I need all the support and advice you can give-

Gellissa