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Quote From: miok41

I have spent the last three years going to school to become a nurse.  I finally finished this past April and have discovered a new underlying fear.  I had worked in the medical field for five years prior to going back to school, I have two great boys the oldest of which I recently had to let go in order for him to attend college  away from home.  He is doing wonderfully and was able to accomplish this through an academic scholarship and being scouted for the football team.  My youngest has just started the 7th grade and while middle school is challenging for anybody, he seems to be doing well. So, that all being said, I now have to address my own issues.  My husband is disabled and has been since 2001, this was an incredibly difficult adjustment for our whole family, loss of income, I was forced to quit my job in order to care for him and the children, etc,. consequently, I felt that by returning to school I would increase my earning power so that we can at least live at the poverty level instead of below it.  The problem I'm facing now is that I am afraid to return to work.  The thought of having the incredible responsibility of people's lives in my hands has become overwhelming,  I get panic/anxiety attacks every time I think about going out and applying for a job now.  I can't figure out why.  I never felt this way before.  I did well in school, my boys are doing great, my husband is to a point where he is able to at least take care of his own basic needs now, not to mention the fact that we DESPERATELY need the money. I'm hoping and praying that someone can help me get past this fear of leaving my family and returning to not only work, but a job that requires me to be accountable for a broader range of very important responsibilities that I have never had to be responsible for in my past work history.  Thanks so much in advance.