Reading your message makes me think....okay, that was the confirmation I was looking for! But somewhere in the back of my mind creeps this nasty feeling of 'no way'.
I've never been hospitalized; I have (at least that's whay they say), a Bipolair II disorder, meaning the stretch is on the depressive episodes and the highs are not that severe. I've been seeing doctors off and on for the last 10 years now, and up till 2 years ago they never even diagnosed me (they said I was too young). Now they've got me on Lithium and Tegretol, and you know what.....I'm not getting that much better. When I wasn't taking meds I would have (for instance) 6 good months and 6 extremely bad months....but in those good months I could do stuff: paint, write, go to college. Now....I can't do nothing. I'm always ill, and it seems like I've got 'a myst' in my head. And it annoys the hell out of me, I want to finish college, I want to do stuff, I want to write (I know, I'm to impatient).
The doctor I'm seeing right now is a really good guy, so I've decided to stick with him for a little while longer. But if I'm truthfully....I'm already thinking about quiting the meds, and just....go with the flow. Maybe for just a while, until I've finished college.
But it's good to hear you're doing okay Torifaith, I'm really glad to hear that. I hope it will never change.
