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I have been doing pretty well and sometimes I feel like I have worked on myself so much that
I am kind of sick of working on myself. Although I it is a habit now working on myself it is becoming somewhat boring.
I also found out that I have some insecurities from the past and would like to get rid of them.
My question is that I am living my life the way I want but there are some gifts and a creative side
to me that I am not filling. I am either lazy or just cant be bothered with it. The one good thing is that
I recognize that I am not filling this creative side to me and that is one of the voids that I feel and I know that I s hould start doing something about it.
Sometimes I feel that I need motivation and there is no one to motivate me.
Okay; Any ideas?
SAY WHAT!! Aren't we your motivators? Isn't that why you turn to us over and over again?
I know what you mean about getting tired of healing ... and that it's become automatic to continue.
I know that for myself, it's been one long journey .. which I truthfully started the summer of 2003 -- yep, this makes my 5th year come this summer. And take it from my personal experience, it does get easier.
I continue the time spent learning to handle life and building within me the necessary tools, vocabulary, and habits that will sustain me for the rest of my life. Like Dr. Phil says in Self Matters, I will remember cognitive behavior techniques that he teaches for the rest of my life. I just have to practice them and use them to dump the non-working areas of my life.
I know it feels like you're lost and that you're not recovering ... just remember .. this short time you're spending is short! As you continue to work thru what your values are and living to them, you will find you are so much closer than you were.
My big AHA moment came when I started to see the "goals" coming to closure .. and that I still had them being created .. however, they were bought to closure because I hadn't been able to see past where I was when I created them. Does that make sense?
I then realized that I was now able to see "more" which made me unhappy and yet, when I reviewed where I was in my life journey, I knew that I was so much happier and at peace NOW than I was ever before. That I would just give it 6 more months ... and I wrote out my goal timeline accordingly.
Does this help?
