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February 13, 2008, 4:53 pm PST
 Quote From: enyadreams I too was a victim of childhood sexual abuse at the young age of 5 yrs and it went on until i was 14 and then i yelled out for help. I told my mom many times but she turned her ears to my pleas when i would tell her to get my dad out of our bedroom. (meaning the girls bedroom because several of us slept in one room) Finally i went to the department of human services in our town and told someone there. I wasn't so much thinking of myself anymore, I had two little sisters that i was deeply worried about that as far as i knew he hadn't got to yet. I have 3 older sisters and another younger one that he had already been abusing too but i wanted to try to spare my two littler ones i possibly could. This was back in the late 60's so times were alot different then and there wasn't as much talk about sexual abuse as there is now . it was all hush hush and it was viewed as the girls fault if she were raped even. When my father was called in and questioned about him abusing us girls he said he thought it was only showing "love" . What a crock! Can you beleive that! The department of social services did nothing!! I have had a hard time trusting ever since. My mother did nothing to help and neither did the system. Mom is still in denial and will always be . My father has since died and before he died i forgave him because i knew he was sick and knew that it was only me that it was really hurting by not forgiving him and i needed to go on with my life. I can't say that i don't still have problems in my life because of it. I have been going to couseling as long as I can remember and am still in couseling not only due to his abuse but I married a man that abused me after that too!! LOL IMAGINE THAT!! haha par for the course. He has died too now. Whew! Now i am alone with all my anger and i need anger management classes but the class is full right now and i have to wait another 10 weeks to get in. My life has been a mess due to all the abuse i endured but one thing i know for sure, I endured! I am a survivor!! enya in mn I'm a 34 yr old who has gone through almost the same life it started too at five for me plus it started with my older sister who has passed ,it was my step farther child services took us because my sister called for help at age 11 but unfortunately for me i got only a short time from the horror of that life cause my mother stole me back so it continued to the age 11 my self until my mother got publicly embarrassed by the erection he had when she took me from his lap in the park that's when she left to only move in with another man like that next day which scared me more I'm one of the lucky ones though cause i don't remember every detail but what i do remember is very horrible plus i was drugged first every time that could be the reason why. anyways I'm in therapy now for the past 2 yrs and it seems like a circle. i still hate my mother to this day but she is in my life why i cant figure because the rage is close to almost death for her at times I'm glad she lives now so far away from me and i want to keep it that way as long as possibly don't believe i will ever have the strength you had to forgive i do pray for vengeance everyday and it gets stronger. plus i too put myself in abusive relationships and i cant figure that one out either but i did stick up for my self this marriage i have now i will not be that victim no more cause Ive turned to violence in my life for mental protection basically I'm glad to hear you are a survivor and stay strong |
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