Replies to '07/17 Living on a Prayer'

Dear Bryan:

When I posted this to Dan and Janna, I had not read your posting. 

 I am thus going to call this a synchronicity moment.

For these reasons:

1. I got this email with this $20 God Inspirational Moment just prior to coming to Dr. Phil's site.

2. I also posted it after a rather judgmental thought reflection of another. Quote in RED.

3. I read your posting next...now that is God's Power in answering prayers that should now be visible to those, a perhaps believing that God is no longer alive or around...He is!

All late morning and afternoon, thoughts of Dan and Janna came a running through my mind and heart.  I was tearful all day...not because I am obsessed with what they were a going through, for I myself am not all that monetarily balanced or harmonized as most here think we all should be...

I was a crying for the responses that more than not, took against Dan and Janna...it made me wonder...am I also crazy for loving God as much as I do and a believing in all that Scripture to me, represents?

I thought myself perhaps in the wrong group of individuals a spending my time a posting along with...

Simply because I did not see the compassion, the empathy for another going through tremendous losses and I thought...Oh my God!  In The Name of Jesus Christ, my Lord and Savior and divine brother, and His precious Holy Spirit...did not you tell us in Revelation, that in End Times, all that is right will be wrong?

I wasn't wanting to believe that perhaps the whole story of having faith the size of a mustard seed being able to move mountains in our life, was only a mind fluke of a creative writer of Biblical Times...for every battle I ever won and trust me...I win them all, God , Jesus and Holy Spirit was the only one there a carrying me through all of my darkest and stormiest moments in life...

How could such a story have such a large impact on my whole Ordained Spiritualist Minister's God-Servitude Mission?

Analyzing my oneself:

I believe that because the ones posting here are here because of what Dr. Phil brings to our mind sets.

They are little snippets of other persons lives and we are merely the back stage viewers...criticizing, cutting, slicing and a dicing them all into junks of information that makes sense to us all...

Thus my mind set flies under the belief that God is in control of all things...and when one surrenders their life over to God, it is not longer their life.  That life has been given over to Him to be lead in what ever direction that He chooses to lead them.

So I kind of felt like my battle over trying to show how judgmental and life changing the thoughts of others could have been for Dan and Janna...wasn't working and I had to go inside and talk to God in hopes that He would show me how further of an assistance I still was needing in trying to get all here a thinking outside of the box.

Go back to Number 1. 2. & 3.  and you will find God's answer to me...

God answers prayers!  Yeah!!!!!!!!

My reflectional thoughts of the scripture where God wants us to develop the attributes of understanding, compassion, empathy, sympathy, forgiveness and unconditional love. 

I was a losing hope that I wasn't in the right place a responding to those wanting answers to questions that most don't even know that they are a asking God to answer...think on that one for awhile, please...

I was beginning to think that being a Christian didn't mean that you had to extend any of those attributes...to anyone...especially one that had fallen down and was a trying to get back up again..."that which you do to the lowest of my children, you do it to me."

So I struggled with myself...all afternoon, thinking, are the majority right and I wrong or I right and them wrong?  Then I struggled with...does it matter?  And I came up with heck yes it matters...

Dan, I myself have had 12 business failures and no I am not a loser, a dead beat or whatever anyone wants to call me...I am a dreamer and as a dreamer, my real love is writing...and I have so many books that I have written in my head and on my computer...just trying to figure life all out...

Trying to forgive those that most would call unforgivable. 

Trying to make sense out of the sense less and trust me Dan, lots in my life have held at first: senseless moments in time and when I took a hard look at it all a thinking outside of the box.

I discovered that my most painful moments in time, were my most outstanding moments...bad, turning into good.

The lessons that came from those stormy times...were always the most profound.  No pain, no gain, I guess kind of thing...hahahehe...oh boy!  All those that know what I mean, please say amen!

Yet trying to get to my rainbow and the pot of gold a waiting and a promised to me...I had to work and I did that as well, even when I became disabled and only my family/friends jumped in trying to help keep me a float  when all I could give my health care job was a part of me, I still had to keep the bills paid and such and the rent fairly paid on time. 

My family/friends were great in trying to help me, even when they were a sinking along with me...yet I knew that is the way of a healer...we sometimes have to travel through all the muck and slime to get to where we know God would have us be...

All here that are a choosing to see it as such...witnessed a miracle...God answered my prayers and showed me...Dan you and Janna, like all of my earlier postings can confirm, are worthy , special and Loved by Him.

Be strong in knowing that God never closes a window without opening a door...never stop believing in God's Will coming before our own...God works in mysterious ways...you just saw a miracle.

Dan you and Janna are good folks...you know what you got to do and how to do it...I am sure all the finances with running your businesses, paying Uncle Sam, employees, with-holdings and such, almost kicked your tail...I know for I am also self employed...it is good on one hand, yet on another, high risk business as Bryan can attest, I am sure...perhaps the most unstable endeavor any entrepenier can venture into...for I too have wondered should I forfeit that which I love for a real job?  The answer that God always gives me is you are where you need to be, even here on the site...so cool...

Or by the way, on CBS news that other day, those of us that can hear and experience God, are supposed to have a special genetic gene called, Vmatt2.  This doctor discovered this link up he believes.

I don't believe it myself for I believe all of us have this ability to talk to God...and hear Him and be open to other avenues that He leads us towards that helps us discover on our own...the answers we were a seeking from Him...all by surrendering our will over to Him. 

Take this time Dan and Janna, to always remember the these times that you are at your lowest; so that when the good times come upon you...you will always be grateful to the One that brought you to the completion of your dreams that you have been dreaming a life time.

My prayers will go with you both, where ever you may land... Please send some out for me as well, for one can never have enough prayers said for them in these hards times upon us...prayers are worth more than gold to me.

May You Be Blessed

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Love, Light and Peace

Tonie

Bryan again, thanks for showing me that even when it seems the majority are a thinking you crazy...God doesn't and that is really all that matters...you know?