Someone once told me that it takes an extraordinary kindness towards one's self to be able to heal from that much pain. Not everyone can find that. The kindness you would extend to someone here? Take that within, and be that to the parts of you that hurt so painfully inside. ( I'm still working on applying these with MY self too.)
Don't abandon yourself in the pain, but in your imagination be that curing presence of overshadowing kindness.
Cherish in the way you would feel moved towards an outer child you found sitting there, hurting, crying, isolated and in pain.
It doesn't get "better"... as much as it manages to become "less" (That's another thing I've heard. )
And yes, we ARE worthy of that kind of love...
NO child "asks" to be abused. They are only brainwashed into thinking it's so. It's a lie the abuser WANTS you to believe.
(Thank you, you've both made a difference in my life today. You are loved...)