Quote From: doglverx5I am also a recovering anorexic at age 43. I spent my entire youth as overweight with my wedding gown being a size 20. Something sort of went hay wire for me around age 36 and I started having anxiety issues that got worse and worse. One of my coping mechanisims was to loose weight....I could at least control that. Loosing weight for a person who has been historically overweight was intoxicating. It got to a point where I could no longer control it , sort of like a runaway train that builds momentum. It was not the worst time in my life, but it was undeniably the strangest time of my life. Not "fueling" your head leaves you in a constant state of numbness and mental "haze". It allowed me to "opt" out of life for at least 6 years. What I regret is that I lost time ,not to mention the other physical deficeits that this disease leaves you with. Like any addiction to begin to heal, it requires the most difficult thing to admit to.....SURRENDER!!!!!
I feel for you, and I'm glad you were able to heal. I have nothing but compassion for people with this disease. It's the hardest thing to do to surrender control when you feel like you have none.
