You need to know, there's not any more wrong with you then any other human being. Your not stupid, your not losing your mind, being crazy could be fun crazy or peculiar crazy, the only difference about us then most other human beings. There is very few of us that are unusual, which allows us to be unique, not many were one of God's chosen few, a few he has a which labels us special, what ever our eccentric purpose is in life, was only able to be fulfilled and done proper with and by only you. your life will contribute much and will be the only person that will be able to accomplish and have what it takes to be done right. Come on, I understand everyday is an up hill struggle. Surprise! I'll be 50 years old in two weeks I've fought that mental hell and struggle 18250 days.
